I just put Patrick to bed after a nice long nurse. He's been a bit punky this evening, although I'm getting clues that my version of punky (Patrick fussing and grumping with the occasional 'real' cry) is quite different from other parents (screaming heads off for three hours). "That's fussy for him?" they ask. I guess Patrick takes after his daddy, as my mom keeps saying, "You just cried all the time."
My poor mom.
Tomorrow I set the alarm for the first time in 12 weeks. I'll get up at five, and we'll see how well my plan goes from there. In 1.5hours, I'll need to: shower, dress, eat breakfast, feed baby, get out the door.
It just might work.
The daycare bags are packs, my lunch is packed, my breast pump is packed. I'm going to get in trouble for not having printed pictures of my baby. Everything is on the computer! Maybe I have something from my inlaws...must look before bed.
I've spent this weekend giving the baby to various grandparents, grateful for the break. Kevin's show is up and running, and he even went in the next day (Saturday) to fix up some last minute items. He's worn out from a killer week at work. I'm worn out from all Mommy-all the time. But the laundry got done, we made it to the grocery store, and we even saw our new friends for dinner tonight!
How do I feel about going back to work? It's been asked in greater frequency this week. I like my job, and I'm excited to get back in the middle of it. But who wouldn't like to stay home, going on playdates and discovering different areas with my baby (and occasionally dogs too). I want Patrick to do well at daycare, but I'm nervous about how this will effect breastfeeding. Because there was never another option for our family at this time, I didn't spend much time "feeling" about it. I will go back to work. Almost like asking, "How do you feel about eating today?"
He's so close to rolling over. He'll probably do it for Nancy (our daycare lady). And I think I'm OK with that.
3 comments:
Good luck on your first day back. I'm anxious to know how everybody did.
Smart move. Overthinking such things is just depressing for no reason. (I occasionally fall victim to such overthinking.) What is, well ... it is. And we all make the best with what we have, and while the grass can always seem greener on the other side, well, the other side likely sees the grass quite green on your side. :)
In other words, appreciate each day for what it is. Come what may.
Celebrate life and all its challenges. They make life interesting. :)
Good luck on your first day back. I hope everything goes well for you, Patrick, Nancy & Kevin! Let me know if you do need help covering all your bases. :) -MC
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